There's A Place

There's A Place

there’s a place where I feel safe
it’s long abandoned, and quite obviously for a reason
but there’s something there for me
an essence of who I was
and the man I longed to be
like a temporary tomb
for playing dead
with all the cigarette butts and the empty cans of lager
the broken records and the smell of ex girlfriends
it serves only as a reminder
to forget sometimes

we brand the cortex to haunt our every day
not thinking or being
just simply doing
still, I remain fearful I will forget the fool I was
and become the fool I was seeing

there’s a place where I feel safe
but never used to
I think of it sometimes
like right now
I think of all the things that are said and done
and all the flies on the wall
and on the cold chips in the corner
next to the stringless guitar
who must have heard it all
I think about them throwing up
not the flies, but the drunken strangers
the ones like me who didn’t give a fuck

time doesn’t pass in the place I feel safe
because time scares me
and time’s the reason I can’t go back
though I’m hungry for it all again
I know
there’s no cure for that

there’s a place where I feel safe
it’s full of non believers
or so they believe

- Elijah James