Spirits & Ghosts

Spirits & Ghosts

out here walking the same old 
pavement i walk everyday
got my hands in pockets
i’m walking to work 
but i’m thinking of walking to you

bored stiff without you around 
to laugh with about feeling blue
in this town with nothing to prove
and nothing to lose but you
and all the things we get each other through

‘cause it’s drearier in this place without your heart
and it’s easier to hurt myself when we’re apart

just to hold you underneath the cloak 
of darkness in this fucked up joke
makes the demons all look like clowns at most
for all i’m keeping i’m keeping you close
to reach abandon is the best i hope
but if we make it we’ll make like spirits and ghosts

tooth fairy for a fang i removed
too scary for the life that i choose
but i’m happy just being me 
in the arms of a new
warm blooded mortal freak

in a perfect world we’d have our chance at the golden gates
but real love is suicide for the laureate 

just to hold you underneath the cloak 
of darkness in this fucked up joke
makes the demons all look like clowns at most
for all i’m keeping i’m keeping you close
to reach abandon is the best i hope
but if we make it we’ll make like spirits and ghosts

Andy's Song

Andy’s Song

there’s the bang then there’s the sound
echos round and round and round
my head like empty steel chamber

i heard it through the grapevine
about your dice with death this time
he wasn’t so forgiving in his wager

but you always wanted to play
and you didn’t mind losing
even for the sake of say, me

you know i looked from here for your eyes
but your eyes no longer shine
and that’s when i knew
i’d lost you for the prize

i awoke with a smile
for the first time in a while
i think i saw you somewhere in a dream i had

it’s strange for me just to think 
once you were everything
now you’re anything i can do just to remember that

and i hope it’s better weather
than when we walked that road together

you know i roamed the depths of your despair
in case i found you there
but all that i could find were footprints leading nowhere

i used to worry it was true
that this world couldn’t spin without you
i think of all the things you said
about how i’m alive ‘cause of you
it’s ‘cause of you
it’s ‘cause of you

there’s the bang then there’s the sound
echos round and round and round
my head like pretty vacant stranger

My Misery And Me

My Misery And Me

downtown as i’m passing the bell tower
it’s five o’clock shadow beneath my feet
in a daydream of nothing that matters
to anyone out here on this crowded street
just my misery and me

so may this new moon
bring hope to you soon
in this poisonous life

wearing cheap smiles
and hoping it’s worthwhile
it’s breaking your heart
selling handshakes
to good for nothing fakes
it’s breaking my heart
and pulling apart
my misery and me

it’s an almost totally perfect 
total eclipse as she passes the sun
in Sinatra’s pale blue afterworld
where i wear a crown of rusted old nails
just my misery and me

so may this locked door
bare the miracle cure
you’re always searching for

wearing cheap smiles
and hoping it’s worthwhile
it’s breaking your heart
selling handshakes
to good for nothing fakes
it’s breaking my heart
and pulling apart
my misery and me

won’t you join me on judgement day
take your smile and take it away
all together on judgement day
take my smile and take it away
we are gigantic on judgement day
so go find another way
go find another way

A Most Unwelcome Encounter

A Most Unwelcome Encounter 

dragonfly in your jar made of glass
oh how i seize when you catch my eye
creature thing you are something like me
i too await a forgiving king
now breach the great wide open space
showcase those wings sweet dragonfly

fables told i’d achieve total grace
with a sharpened sword and a helping hand
in silence i unveil my crooked spin
and strike my pose

from the stars that hang above me
to the edge of the horizon 
atop my ivory tower
i could see for miles
i blew a kiss and i waved goodbye 
as i began to fly

only real dreamers make it this far

but all i ever wanted
flashed before my eyes
my dominion all in flames
as i was falling fast
the dragonfly just flew on by
and swear i heard it say

it’s been a most unwelcome encounter

took a step to be free
took a fool to believe

my pillow’s soaked in tears
and my brother’s well away
and normally i hate we share a room
but tonight
well that’s okay

Scared Of Everything

Scared Of Everything

it doesn’t matter if no-one hears this song
it’s not meant for anyone else
i’ve lived alone in this world so long
i’ve forgotten how true love felt

behind this swollen smile
lives an old man crying
widower to a girl
he can’t even remember dying

what a thrill that it must be to be anything
maybe i’d know if i wasn’t scared of everything 

couldn’t tell you how much i want to care
‘cause the things i have don’t last
settled inside ‘cause outsides hard to bare
it takes a lifetime but it moves too fast

within this murky mile
treads a young man trying
an antidote with a dream
of never dying 

what a thrill that it must be to be anything
maybe i’d know if i wasn’t scared of everything

disfunction, a side effect of being me
a total and utter outsider 
but don’t lean on me and expect stability 
‘cause my name’s not even Elijah

this tender trail 
curated by a fallen king
to test even the strongest mans
deepest feelings

what a thrill that it must be to be anything
maybe i’d know if i wasn’t so scared of everything

Beyond The Horizon

Beyond The Horizon 

beyond the horizon under a bright orange sun
i hope you’re having a laugh
i remember the weight of our last embrace
i just wish i’d kept a photograph

‘cause you were the bravest
and you probably still are
always chasing the promise 
of a shooting star
but you called that living
and so i believed it was 
you deserve a safe return 
may it be yours 
may it be true
and may it hold a place for you

beyond the horizon between the temple and the gun
is only the will to be free
i remember that feeling early morning birds singing
while you lay so still beside me

‘cause you were the promise
that i kept so well
always picking me back up
whenever i fell
and you called that true love
so i believed it was
you deserve a safe return 
may it be yours 
may it be true
and may it hold a place for me too

it’s easy to say i won’t think of you today
it’s so much harder to resist
beyond the horizon under a bright orange sun
is you 
just you
and that’s it

Mayfly (One Last Perfect Day)

Mayfly (One Last Perfect Day)

the bedsheets are cold 
like it’s harboured a body
there’s a chill in the air
i bare to imagine
through the skylight, a world
of cars and their horns
i’m definitely here
but am i definitely sure

i’ve not slept a wink
in this teetering slumber
news from the subconscious
submerging me under
the phone lines are engaged
the reception only static
a pain for everything
for every one a panic
a panic
a panic
a panic             

i keep a close eye 
on the hands of the clock
the only constant reminder
of sleep that i’ve lost
each minute a wound
each wound a worry
if the dark doesn’t hide
the light doesn’t hurry

when i make my move 
it’s for cigarettes
and i creak like the floorboards
with every last step
the nature of routine
is a stage in a way    
and i wish i was the mayfly
this last dance for one last perfect day

There's Everything Else And Then There's You

There’s Everything Else, And Then There’s You

it used to be much easier stuck inside this shell
all i had was you
and all you had was me
now i can’t control the weakness to look across the room
i know that you’re not there
it’s just muscle memory 

but i want you to know that i understand
life had a different plan for you
and i could have become the line in the sand
but i would never make you choose 

all across the universe to that bedroom, that first kiss
when your skin was a cold comfort
for my virgin hands to lay
just the remnants of a celebration in a distorted memory
as i walk the same old road i walk 
everyday

and i want you to know that there’s always a space
where you used fit so well
and i promise that if you never return 
that’s the place your ghost will dwell

now i know it’s time
but somehow it all just flew away
tell Matthew i hope he never lost faith 
back when you were mine
somehow you up and disappeared 
back somewhere in time and nowhere in space
now when the day is through 
and nothing’s quiet and calm
there’s everything else
and then there’s you

i imagine fairytales on the streets of NYC
the people and their voices fill the busy city
you and all your sentiments are all that i can see
you’re wearing New York City and you look so pretty

i’ve been thinking about leaving here someday
to find another love to keep
but everything else seems cheap compared 
to the heartache i do reap

now i know it’s time
but i just do not have the guts
tell Matthew i hope he doesn’t blame me
back when you were mine
somehow you up and disappeared 
the world waited for you to come back to me
now when the day is through 
i ignore the alarms 
‘cause there’s everything else
and then there’s you
there is everything else
and then there’s you

Talisman

Talisman

here, lost in between frames
idle, i dream every now and again
for you, for all the wonder you brought
ancient talisman i’m yours

and as it stands i’m on my knees
cradling these memories 
to comfort me

the timer resets to zero
as the hunter releases his eagle
course the flowers never do reach the sky
in any dream of mine

my guardian, i hereby 
cross my heart and hope to die
it comforts me
oh lord
bring it down on me

do you remember now?
for if it could ever come true
i’d see better to you

a pacifist archangel’s blood
tastes just like the sweetest love
it comforts me

To Sue, Too Soon

To Sue, Too Soon

i first remember how it felt
breaking through the astroid belt
the time i spent looking out
and wondering what it meant 
to love anyone bent on poison and pearls 

she was a friend of Johanna Scott’s 
they go way back to before the internet 
when stories blew noise 
through a breeze
the keys of something blue and beautiful too

poor, poor Susan she was a clock
she never stuck around to watch
she had smile that made you smile
she didn’t care for you that much 
my girl Susan 
she is a dream
she is a god 
she is a
almighty Susan she was a lot
but beautiful she was not 

they found a bible in her hand
and dandelions in her hair
and a note addressed
‘My good friends, 
what friends we never were’
good god 
lay down
if the wind breaks my wings
good job i have a job
good god i’m good at drinking 

if Sue i’m to ever meet you
whether it be at the gates of heaven
or the fires of hell
well i wouldn’t mind just to see you again
i took a walk that day
picked up a pack of cigarettes
ate a burger 
drank a beer
kissed my girl farewell
farewell to sue
too soon
to sue
too soon


Cut Me Down

Cut Me Down

i finally feel it falling into sequence
like the fridges full of blood were just bad dreams
and all those words that i thought of 
but never really meant
were just a chemical spill from some chemical pill

suddenly i feel the ground beneath us shaking 
from the marching of the passing parade 
to the hundreds of drunken reflections 
that are breaking down
the mirror into myself, into my hell

i sit cemented in the womb
scheming my eternal tomb
my perpetual doom

everybody finds a special place 
to go to when they’re lost and out of faith 
it’s okay feel a little bit scared 
i’ll be with you right here going nowhere
and everybody fills that empty space
by killing time and wearing a happy face
it’s okay to feel a little bit scared 
i’ll be with you right here going nowhere
be with you right here going beautiful nowhere

amongst the many faces of the many faithless 
fakers who are impervious to fear
while in some other place somewhere 
else theres this space i can take
free from all of this shit i put up with

now i’m not saying i will end this war
i’m just a mortal with immortal cause 
eventually yours

everybody finds a special place 
to go to when they’re lost and out of faith
it’s okay feel a little bit scared 
i’ll be with you right here going nowhere
and everybody fills that empty space
by killing time and wearing a happy face
it’s okay to feel a little bit scared 
i’ll be with you right here going nowhere
be with you right here going beautiful nowhere

once i awoke from a dream 
where i was hanging from a tree
suspended over memories 
of what i had achieved 
while silhouettes with pointed horns
pointed and laughed at me
i said
THIS ISN’T YOUR PARTY!!
it’s my misery
so just cut me down
just cut me down

I Hate It Here, But You Are Here, And I Love You

I Hate It Here, But You Are Here, And I Love You

and so it became my foreign afterworld
my man-made brand new hell
stuck in this bloodied cell
one hundred eyes all fixed on the escape plan
and unwashed skin is not a problem 
when you’re all in the same position

i’m living a life in vain
by trying to kill all this pain

with things like amphetamines 
and self-induced bad dreams
i’m living the biggest lie
but i see no shame
in trying to catch the rain

and with the swinging wrecking ball and the emptiness
comes the losing streak and the drunken nights
all under these northern lights
you can pretend that you’re doing fine, believe it if it helps
but sooner or later you’ll be worn-out and thin
all alone with that stone cold feeling

i’m living a life in vain
by trying to kill all this pain

with things like amphetamines 
and self-induced bad dreams
i’m living the biggest lie
but i see no shame
in trying to catch the rain

this place i’m in 
is pulling and pulling me further within
now i’m drinking again and the room is beginning to spin
my hair’s coming out
the tide’s coming in
and all this self doubt 
well it’s wearing me thin
now i’m looking in the mirror
and all i can see 
is hole where my heart used to be 
and you can see right through
see right through
see right through

i hate it here, but you are here, and i love you

- Elijah James

Man-Made Masquerade

Man-Made Masquerade

yes i know these walls i know them well
i put them up around myself to dwell
you gotta get out
move out
you might as well
or you'll just end up
spent up
in this shell

i used to see for miles in every direction
and i'd sit for hours and hours with no objection
you gotta get out
move out
and be done
you can't spend
'til the bitter end
dreaming 'bout the sun

and if you just allow
yourself the power
to kick a hole
create a whole
different world
a world so big
it scares you
but was made to do
a simple job
a better job
than plucking strings
and hoping things
work out
you won't become a man-made masquerade

yes i know these string i know them well
they make a sound so sweet resonates round this cell
you gotta get out
move out
can't you tell
it's a mess
all you've left
a new hell

now i work the gears to pump the engines oil
it's enough to move but i've got nowhere to go
just gotta get out
and set out
on the road
set your sights
let the lights
guide you home

and just allow
yourself the power
to kick a hole
create a whole
different world
a world so big
it scares you
but was made to do
a simple job
a better job
than plucking strings
and hoping things
work out

for better
or just for a change
even if it all ends up
a broken trail
at least you'd learn
to set your sail
on different seas
to differently
see the place
you might have never known
you won't become a man-made masquerade

but a normal everyday man
who's made a mask
and joined the rest
in life's big parade

- Elijah James

 

That Girl Of Mine

That Girl Of Mine 

what a difference it makes
it used to be so cold out on bold street
now i keep it in mine
just incase my knees go weak
and when sometimes i lose my grip
she squeezes tight and keeps a hold of it
so if i'm going down
she'll be right there beside me

i'm not afraid of the major leagues anymore
a day could feel like a thousand years then some more
there's this burning i've got running through my veins
like a steam train i'm boiling blood
my circulations never been so g'g'g'good

what a difference it makes
sun is out got my head screwed on dead tight
and i'm present in mind
for the past is a vampires bite
all the world on a ferris wheel
no-one can tell you how you're gonna feel
when you're going down
now she's right there beside me

i'm not afraid of the major leagues anymore
a day could feel like a thousand years then some more
there's this burning i've got running through my veins
like a steam train i'm boiling blood
my circulations never been so g'g'g'good

next to her this planet seems so shallow
across lakes in her eyes floats a moon all hollow
she's a twisted vine twisted around my spine
how i seethe
how i teethe
how i need
that girl of mine

i'm not afraid of the major leagues anymore
a day could feel like a thousand years then some more
there's this burning i've got running through my veins
like a steam train i'm boiling blood
my circulations never been so g'g'g'good

- Elijah James

On A Stage

On A Stage

here on a stage with no tricks up my sleeve
there's no trapdoor below and no strings moving me
keeping my eyes closed i'll open my heart
for a room full of haircuts to call it humanities art

and tomorrow i'll be king for the day
a new meaning to the words that i say
and all the bright eyes that never shine my way
will light me up

as bright as a star
igniting the moon
through the cracks in my heart
upon painted black sky
just like a parade
still born and high

now this is my last request don't expect me to return
if it all goes bad this is for good
and i'll be the one to admit i was wrong
but i'm right where i want it was here on this stage all along

and tomorrow when i'm king for the day
i'll lift myself out of the place
and all the bright minds that never shine for me
will lift me up

as high as a star
fire shimmering gold
through the cracks in my heart
above a treacle ocean
just like a parade
in slow motion

i used to be a little boy
that was made out of mud
and all of my friends
were worms and slugs
oh how we dreamt of new horizons
beyond the limits of our restrictions

as big as a sun
bares heavenly light
through the cracks in our skin
upon a vast open space
just like a parade
you'll see my face
then the curtain will fall

- Elijah James
 

Movie In Your Eyes

Movie In Your Eyes

i see a faded silhouette
on the face of the moon
long life for little fleeting eyes
to chase through the gloom
you've got the red button right
under your thumb
i never thought you needed
a reason
to lose your cool and blow us all to hell

i'll be your keeper tied and true
you'll be in ruins once a brute
'til modern man built new homes
you picked the devils from your teeth
but kept the common kids like me
'til spinning drills tore a hole
like the movie in your eyes foretold

we form an all forgotten youth
but we are not scared
'cause you are the precious little mind
and we're the nightmares
there is a rocket in our hands
and infinite dark
we don't need a fire
just a little spark
to flick the switch and sent it to the moon

i'll be your keeper tied and true
you'll be in ruins once a brute
'til modern man built new homes
you picked the devils from your teeth
but kept the common kids like me
'til spinning drills tore a hole
like the movie in your eyes foretold

just like an ocean in a shell
we are contained in ourselves

- Elijah James